With Marks Just To Low
Sam scanned his test papers, reading through all the questions in his maths paper. He was stumped, for he did not know a single question. Twisting and turning his pen nervously, he attempted the first question. He thought the teacher would probably give him some marks if he at least wrote something down. Thus, he continued scribbling absurd equations into the test paper until the time was up. Sam then left for the toilet, despite the hot discussion going on in the classroom. He knew he definitely would be left out.
When he got back his papers a few dreaded days later, the marks shocked him to the core. He had expected higher marks than what he saw on the paper. At least a border line pass was better than a fail. Well, it seems that his theory did not prove to be effective in this case. Depressed and distressed to the point of tears and possibly suicide, Sam sat and pondered about his distant future.
Now, Sam decided on two options. Option number 1 was to tell his mother about it, and option number 2 was…Sam immediately rebuked that thought. He was still too young. So, he tucked the papers in his bag, hoping that would help to delay the music he would eventually have to face.
On his way back home, thoughts were whirling in his mind. His, marks were too low for him to return home, his marks were just too low for him to face his mother, his marks were too low too live up to the standard his mother had set for him, and his marks were just too low for him to pay back all the effort his mother has put into raising a son all by herself. He had let her down utterly.
Confused and dejected, he was still weighing about the two options. “No, it was silly to end your life because of one failure” He kept consoling himself. However, the more he thought about it the more suicidal he became. Sam soon decided.
He reached his house door. After placing his bag down and taking his shoes off, he took the papers out form his bag. He clutched them tightly. Sam had chosen a final option, and it was the latter. He cautiously sat on the railing of the ledge. What a view it was from here. He could see the clouds, the luscious trees, and the tiny people below him. Sam could even feel the wind howling past his ears, brushing past his face. He shut his eyes for a moment, tasting all the sweet and bitter moments he spent with his mother, and whispered all so softly:
“Mummy, my marks are just too low. I have let you down. Sorry mummy…”
